Met the She last night. She was last night. She had a sharp wit honed in the time of laughter and avoidance. She is unlike those around me in that Hers is more a life of avoid which is a utter mystery because Her vision will strike a strong man down. Where She is now … Continue reading The She →

Bringing a baby to an art museum. What are the parents thinking? Why are they not better trained to think. And so, I view Modigliani and one of the best exhibits I've ever seen. But it is a Saturday afternoon on a cloudy rain threatening day; the people have crowded the beautiful wanna-be-something-other-it-is place (Phillips) … Continue reading Modigliani And The Imbecile →

It has been (a) hour(s) and sorts. The sounds might be at fault. It's as though I have moved between dimensions. Remember? Certainly the previous one was quiet. DC is so loud and hectic. But I have maintained the organism. Wait. Let me scrap(e) it (her) off the hard wood floor once again. Mold. It. … Continue reading In Tact →

Henri De Toulouse-Lautrec Red Headed Nude Crouching, 1897 In the Salon: The Sofa, 1892-1893 Women Resting, 1894-1895 In The Bed: The Kiss In The Salon, 1893 (Same room, different angle as previous "On The Sofa") Medical Inspection (Rue de Moulins), 1894 Explain to Danton the limits of his excess. Beyond the failed cause stands a … Continue reading Allow →

The apple. Used by Newton for gravity and Bible for religion. Contradiction? Same thing? Both fell out of nowhere? Identify space tearing flop transitions. The anthropic principle. This is a doctrine, not unlike a political or relgious agenda, that stipulates (in the world of theoretical physics) the world is the way it is because we … Continue reading The Apple →

How to? Cookies cooked stale. The cooky batter/dough was so old that when I cooked them they were already stale. -From a friend (Patrick Henry) Rant on. T

Justification of existence. How to justify ones existence. (This is the not related to the useless-eater idear.) Is existence based on (human) behaviour? What the behaviour once was? It's no longer about the justifications of ones actions which has been the case during most of the industrial era (pre industrialisation?) but instead about the result … Continue reading Inescapable →

Is it done? Cramped into the elegant plastic seats of LH416 listening to people (men) snore on the agonizing flight. This is supposed to be the beginning of something new, as my dear sweet sister says. (And I love her for it.) Yes, the observations. Cramped in a seat. So much room in the would, … Continue reading Theory Of Everything →

I'm not blaming you. There's just a reason for all this. Blame. Reason. Regards, Tommi

When the act of giving is cancelled. Subsidy. For example. Cheers, Tommi

It's about learning. The learning process. Here's the crux in schooling: it's not about learning. It's the How and not just the What. For example, do not read religion to understand it or exercise it, read about it. Oh find that peace of dividend. What is the thread weaved to produce the quilt? "Thorpe" -- … Continue reading Blackjack Team →

Everybody's mother depends on social security. Old people eating cat food. Look it up. An American't phenomenon? Not hardly. Apartment of a old mother. Open a kitchen and it's full of cans of cat food. >Put this in Bela Kaan, the parents in retirement. -tgs

What do you do when he's got you where he wants you? There is no place to run or hide. And there is nothing left to say. How he got you here doesn't matter because you are "here". What do you do? How do you turn the tide of this, a result of, mis-trust? You … Continue reading Temple Church →

2004 12 23 Have spent too much time, a calamity perhaps, on this issue of god. Wonder if death would finally relieve me of this thoughtless burden since I know that He is a She and She is quite different than anything I'll ever experience--in life or death. But it is something I will never … Continue reading Gone Backwards →

2004 12 21 Rumor: Zoroaster laughed on the day of his birth. If I read to you a truth do I also (can I possibly) forsake you? The twins of truth. Truth as opposing twins. Perfect twins = born male and female and identical. Is such a thing possible? A deal is made between men. … Continue reading Laughing At Ones Own Birth →

2004 12 20 Hegel > it’s all about reason. Nothing else. “Willed congress”—an alchemical wedding. The once spiritually feminine soul was united with God. Someone or something made this spirit FALL into human form which is immediately defiled. This is the way of the carnal world. Eventually her prayers are heard and god rescues her … Continue reading Six Basics →

2004 12 09 A rose & cross with a distinctive head, bald of skin and a scarred skull bone, stood upon its single leg and waved its handler's arms and said: we live in times when the How has eliminated the WHY. physical + material = mind + soul It was, I suppose, a great … Continue reading How Defeats Why →

2004 12 01 What is it that draws people to ignorance? And where does mine come from? Is it a fact that people do not want to deal with reality? Obviously a reality is given, it is distributed, it is consumed. Those who cannot cope with it then drift NOT away from it but with … Continue reading Fight With Taxi Driver →

28 11 04 Read. Confusion. Trying to figure out. Ideas. Where to go? Magdala or Magdalene was (?) a Benjamite. Weren't the Benjamites overrun by David? This the Royal connection as Jesus was possibly from the line of David. Explain this love to them. They say they give but who gives in a war? No, … Continue reading Baby Has Shoes →

Just bringing old notebook notations online. This will take a while. Entry from 20.10.04. Notebook: Moleskine Yes, it is the wake of the deeds from dark places that I am in and tremble with fear. And I always end the fuck with Y and the big :-)? It is the flight of all flights that … Continue reading Survive vs Live →