2005 01 11 Idear: A small crowd on stage. Every once a once a man appears from the crowd directing it. Then he disappears in the crowd. This goes on several times. Eventually a different man appears from the crowd as if chosen. He is congratulated by the first man who was directing things. This … Continue reading Reptilian Brain Codes
Category: Notebook
These are mostly scans or transcripts from my old notebooks, journals, etc., that predated both blogging and the Interwebnets.
Wrong Equation
2005 01 03 Romance + expectation = contradiction. Or is that incompatible? Two. Completely. Incompatible. Contradiction. Rant on, baby. -tgs-
Two People Falling
2004 12 27 Man and woman finding each other. They weren't looking. Do you understand? Do you know? So... Stage: Two people falling on stage and talking as though nothing has happened, although they just fell onto the stage. They realize they know each other and begin to dialog. The conversation is about what caused … Continue reading Two People Falling
Gone Backwards
2004 12 23 Have spent too much time, a calamity perhaps, on this issue of god. Wonder if death would finally relieve me of this thoughtless burden since I know that He is a She and She is quite different than anything I'll ever experience--in life or death. But it is something I will never … Continue reading Gone Backwards
True Truth
2004 12 22 What is the logic? (Where?) Sexism, for example. Or prohibition of pornography by so-called moralists. What's the point of a bunch of men out there protesting a porn movie house? The only answer to Christopher Marlow being another of W. Shakespeare's work, although he was (supposedly) dead, is that he had already … Continue reading True Truth
Laughing At Ones Own Birth
2004 12 21 Rumor: Zoroaster laughed on the day of his birth. If I read to you a truth do I also (can I possibly) forsake you? The twins of truth. Truth as opposing twins. Perfect twins = born male and female and identical. Is such a thing possible? A deal is made between men. … Continue reading Laughing At Ones Own Birth
Six Basics
2004 12 20 Hegel > it’s all about reason. Nothing else. “Willed congress”—an alchemical wedding. The once spiritually feminine soul was united with God. Someone or something made this spirit FALL into human form which is immediately defiled. This is the way of the carnal world. Eventually her prayers are heard and god rescues her … Continue reading Six Basics
Printers Ornaments
2004 12 19 Wingdings, dingbats, aka “printer’s ornaments”, the origin was to help printers fill space or decorate when printing. Today this is a type of code. Or it’s an undiscovered secret containing code. Priest. Idea: a defrocked drunk turned detective stumbles on the secret of the anti-christ. What happens when twins mate? (Assuming the … Continue reading Printers Ornaments
Fun Of It All
2004 12 18 It is said that apathy is the work of the devil. Yet in a world where parallels cross at will all in the name of something futile (social justice) that/then perhaps in apathy lies (a) solution to all ill will. When work for productivity became chain–like then the first casualty of the … Continue reading Fun Of It All
Careful Planning
2004 12 17 Dear worst-reader. My dear little wrost-(note)book (Moleskine) full of whatnot, it has a fancy but dull hard black cover. What is the sense of it all if it all has been done? No. If it all has no sense. (Yeah, that's the ticket.) Even the question must have been asked a thousand times. … Continue reading Careful Planning
Sistine Chapel
2004 12 15 Imposition. Visit to Sistine Chapel. The Sistine Chapel. The ceiling works almost three dimensional. How could "work" ever be done in this room? Who is trying to be impressed? A statue of Christ gets lost in this space of colorful human history. Colorful human loss. Why does this room work like a … Continue reading Sistine Chapel
Not So Original Sin
2004 12 13 Irony = Francis Bacon's death. FB was inspired by the possibility of preserving meat using snow. FB bought a chicken to test this possibility and while stuffing the chicken with snow he caught a case of pneumonia and died. Original sin. A&E sinned by taking from the forbidden tree of knowledge. They … Continue reading Not So Original Sin
How Defeats Why
2004 12 09 A rose & cross with a distinctive head, bald of skin and a scarred skull bone, stood upon its single leg and waved its handler's arms and said: we live in times when the How has eliminated the WHY. physical + material = mind + soul It was, I suppose, a great … Continue reading How Defeats Why
Psalms vs Palms
2004 12 07 What to do when you think you've been lied to (falls pretense) and then learn finally the truth? When truth is not better than a lie. Much of life must be about this. Or. Oh, buttercup, I wish the glaze you'd put under my chin would hold past my next shower. Soldiers … Continue reading Psalms vs Palms
Fight With Taxi Driver
2004 12 01 What is it that draws people to ignorance? And where does mine come from? Is it a fact that people do not want to deal with reality? Obviously a reality is given, it is distributed, it is consumed. Those who cannot cope with it then drift NOT away from it but with … Continue reading Fight With Taxi Driver
Baby Has Shoes
28 11 04 Read. Confusion. Trying to figure out. Ideas. Where to go? Magdala or Magdalene was (?) a Benjamite. Weren't the Benjamites overrun by David? This the Royal connection as Jesus was possibly from the line of David. Explain this love to them. They say they give but who gives in a war? No, … Continue reading Baby Has Shoes
Virgins And OGU
25 11 04 Thinking of things that could make sense. Verisimilitude. Illusion. Delusion. Etc. What is the only way a child can be born of a virgin? How can a child be born of a virgin? How is a virgin child-birth possible? -The mother of the child is not a woman. -The child is unaware … Continue reading Virgins And OGU
Sion Conspiracy Craze
24 11 04 Shipped yesterday. Shipping a lot lately. Never quite know where I might fall or if the ground is hard or not. The reason for it is obvious. My mouth. She runs on at times. It's very difficult keeping pace, you know. It came especially fast last night--pushed on by too much wine. … Continue reading Sion Conspiracy Craze
Thoughts Wise People
23 11 04 It is time that limits all possibility. You loose possibility as time goes by. Edward Albee: You can take a blind person to a play and they'll understand it; take them to a movie they're lost. The rest-stop in the search for truth is humour. (Not sure who/what said that.) It should … Continue reading Thoughts Wise People
Links Berg Hoch
18 11 04 Someone is being chased and as he practically defeats his chaser (who is chasing for ransom) he cuts a deal with him. "Okay, you got me. Turn me in. Collect your ransom but then come back and get me out." The story is what happens between chaser and chased to cause him/them … Continue reading Links Berg Hoch
Watermelon Justice?
17 11 04 The watermelon army. Name given to army put together by G. Washington to fight whiskey tax rebels (1794). This the first state vs fed confrontation. Thomas Jefferson resigned as Sec of State over the matter because he sided with the states who were opposed to such fed power. See also Herman Husband. … Continue reading Watermelon Justice?
She Walks In Gun Store
16 11 04 America. America. Do you hear the calling? Don't kill the messenger, please. I'm just 'round (t)here, under your chin. I know it's a mess but most porn endings are. So what. Don't wipe me off with your spotted hanky just yet. A woman walks into a gun store. The owner is always … Continue reading She Walks In Gun Store
Stop Being With Stupid
15 11 04 - Moleskine Choice isn't about choosing but instead about which wrong(s) to pick. A little help from our worst-friend Zoroaster: A supreme being created twins of reality and unreality. These are not about good and evil. Reality is objectivity. Unreality is subjectivity. Subjectivity becomes negative when we become subject to it. So. … Continue reading Stop Being With Stupid
Her Opposites
13 11 04 - Moleskine (including handwritten note). Arrival. Home? Home away from home. In a trance. Listening to ghost-like words from my son's wisdoms: Wenn eine Lügt dem glaubt man nicht auch wenn er dann die Wahrheit spricht. I think of nature. What is her opposites? Religion? Politics? Humanity? Belief, love, hope? (Just thought … Continue reading Her Opposites
Between Meridians
12 11 04 Yes. Between meridians I will mark it with this date. I have seen a vision. So many. Always trapped in the three walls of a black box. This time two people meet for a debate. One side of the stage is a table dressed in white prepared for a fancy dinner. Next … Continue reading Between Meridians
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