Renunciation

Renunciation. Have no idear what that means. Would like it to mean something opposite of what it already means if it means anything and mean... what? Nonsense. Perhaps. Or that German word that carries with it connotations of meaning that are beyond anything human. Like... something about the devil, Lucipher, tired of competing with God … Continue reading Renunciation →

Guns Lawyers Therapists

You will learn to resolve personal issues with out using guns, lawyers or therapists. The fact that you need so many lawyers and therapists shows that you are not adult enough to be independent. Guns should only be handled by adults. If you're not adult enough to sort things out without suing someone or speaking … Continue reading Guns Lawyers Therapists →

Lowering Expectations

Crossed a few time zones. Waiting on the baggage, luggage--why so many words for one thing? Siting next to homeland security IT geek. Probably ten years older than me. Got a fancy pocket PC and a '99 Mustang GT. Nice guy and I will not ask him for a job. But I was talking about … Continue reading Lowering Expectations →

Titles and Ownership

Watching "Poker" championship (don't know why). A Stevie Ray Vaughn look-alike battling for the championship. This guy looks like Dr. Bad Ass. But then it is learned he is, like all other players, a swing dance instructor with a degree in mathematics. Do I have my phone turned off? When is, if ever, such a … Continue reading Titles and Ownership →

Amazing Tears Listening

Lydia Fairchild. Woman with three children on welfare. In mixed marriage with black husband. Another example is Karen Keegan. These women, under whatever circumstances, were DNA tested and it was found that their children had no DNA commonality, which is usually at least fifty percent. Now. These women were the mothers of their children. The … Continue reading Amazing Tears Listening →

The Taboo Stuff

Start with this (thought). For a play/story? Not sure. German American Bund. GAB. Before WW2 the GAB organized large gatherings in US promoting Nazism. They even had a gathering at Madison Square Garden (I think). Who were the speakers? McCarthyism was childs play compared to the roundup of German, Italian adn japanese people. Fritz Kuhn … Continue reading The Taboo Stuff →

Henry Miller In The Bar

Sometimes during this stretch of life I feel as though there is only one man I can turn to for answers. Reading his essays provides answers to questions I asked months prior. So I suppose HM and patience are my two good bed fellows(?). It is not possible for him to tell me who I … Continue reading Henry Miller In The Bar →

A Night Out

What matters is the big picture. That's why so many things look best when viewed from afar. Paintings, for example. Or large orchestrated gatherings such as those from the Soviet Union, China, North Korea. What I hate about women (hate being the wrong word), especially girls. Wait. Just because you read-up on the meaning of … Continue reading A Night Out →

Stuff Read

He wasn't just inside me. He was in me. So s/he said/proclaimed. Pause. Have to stop reading that stuff. Rant on. Tommi

Protect The Seed

To make a purchase of any value you have to take a loan. So how do you feed the consumer hunger when they can no longer afford the loans? Story: person about to run amok. He's obese. Unemployed. Wife left him. Wants to be father to his son but doesn't know how. Calculates it all … Continue reading Protect The Seed →

Suds And Bubbly

Had a bottle or two. Found one in the middle of night soaking in the hotel tub still full of bath water. The label was floating next to suds. A bottle of bubbly in the tub among suds. It's these women and these images of corruption. Just see below. If only my uncle (or any … Continue reading Suds And Bubbly →

Love Goat

Still jet-lagging? Can't be. Been long enough. But this west coast thing... It's the last day of so many. But/And the many always win. Off to the theater. ... Last night I saw "The Goat" from Albee. The tradition of absurdity is still alive. Perhaps even reinvigorated--but the final judgement has yet to emerge. Nonetheless … Continue reading Love Goat →

Chinaski

Amazed at the view. Chinaski haunting me. Running from Chinaski. Wish I couldn't run (from the) drunken-ness. It would seem (like) a great way to rid myself of this pain. Ain't that what alcohol is for? The numbing. Been numb for too long. But the pain is caused by the drunken-ness. Not of body or … Continue reading Chinaski →

The Commodity

Shroeder's - German beer hall restaurant near hotel off Market Street. Finance district SF? Drnking a beer, the wheat beer from Germany?, tasted bland, I switched to Anchor Steam. When in Rome... Getting drunk on beer and small-talkin'--can't help listening to two yuppies talk about making money. (The sucess(ful) (of) fools.) What was the dialog … Continue reading The Commodity →

Uncollapse

Speaking mind from some side street off of Geary Street, SF. Breakfast at Lou's Diner. Drive-in made to look like it was out of a movie. Movie no one ever saw. But it has all the makings like the rest of US. To be more than it is. Ordered a big breakfast to cur4b the … Continue reading Uncollapse →

That Name

Once again you will not find a place so perfectly dominated and run by idiots. You only have to view or analyze the entry points. The patient begins with a roaming cellphone call from Stone's sister. (There's that name again.) Here the family chaos begins and at the same time the adventure-chaos making his way … Continue reading That Name →

Love

To a woman love is a noun. To a man love is a verb. -t

Bonnie Without Clyde

Stone notices all the military recruiters around mid-west America. Do you have to call him "Stone"? It's used too much. It's ok to be dumb as long as you keep it to yourself. Story. Young woman, middle age man. Crisis situation. The two are in a (kind of) corner. The first things audience hears is: … Continue reading Bonnie Without Clyde →

Clouding

Life needs to be shades (of?) and colors. Money should be black and white. The complexity of finance and capital management is clouding (the) human vision, mind, soul... Etc. -t

Sartre's Speech

Find Sartre's (in)famous speech where he says the French were most free when they were under occupation. A man who is able to love a woman and yet never cry for one is a great man. So many great things said. What is their context? -t

Artist?

"Salzfässen." The point under neck and above collar bone. The most magical part of the female (from the planet...) The success of an artist depends on his ability to self-endulge. No, that's totally wrong. His/Her success depends clearly on an ability to NOT self indulge. Scratch that. You're not an artist. Move on. -t

The Gift

Idear. The son of a rich man bitter that he can't make it one his own finds new ways, criminal ways?, to get rich. What he learned from his rich father is that you just have to be tactical with the truth and when being tactical is too difficult then you just have to find … Continue reading The Gift →

Victim

Victimisation. Who has it? Where does it come from? A pillar of society it is not, yet we weave like small children at play through various forms of it/them, not knowing or even questioning their history. And for what? When all is guided by the emotions that come from it then it is no wonder … Continue reading Victim →

Only Had The Courage

Is the simplest explanation always the best? ...they've been told that god is mysterious, unfathomable, so to then incoherence is the closest thing to god." -Umberto Eco Don't particularly mind the turn the world has taken recently to fundamentalism. There's nothing wrong with that type of control as it obviously serves a purpose. The problem … Continue reading Only Had The Courage →

Matti's Therapy

A mother and her (crazy) sons (or son). Two male characters. One a boy, the other a young man. No. Just one son. One son. The mother has to deal with the problems of her son because the father is absent (died, runaway, etc.) The young man is also troubled. The young man and the … Continue reading Matti's Therapy →